Friends, I was MORTIFIED!
I was explaining to my Small Business Boot Camp class the struggle to update my website.
So you know what the instructor says? "Well, let's take a look at it."
Nooooo.....let's NOT take a look at it! I haven't even looked at it for years myself! I wish I could disable the site while working on it but I have no clue how to do that. Don't look at my website! (Translation:"I'm afraid to be seen as 'unfinished' or unrefined.'")
Too bad. Despite my drastic pleas, the instructor and the curiosity of the class won. We viewed my site on the huge screen. There it appeared - seemingly large enough for passing traffic to see from the road outside.
Let's just say that God has jokes. I agree that I need to exercise more vulnerability and apparently, God agrees as well. After all, who has it all together 100 percent of the time? God has sure-fire ways of teaching valuable lessons, and this one turned out to be kind of funny (after a while!)
I lived through the experience of the class viewing the pages of my dinosaur-aged website. After lacking inspiration for about ten years, the sheer terror of watching others see the site jump-started the creative juices.
First, I had to decide that I would not die from embarrassment. Secondly was the realization that I need not be embarrassed after all. For several years I was merely blocked - and not by my design. In those years God did a transformative work that I have only recently come to understand and appreciate.
Soon after my inner "pep" talk, ideas began coming from many directions on how to improve my website. But that's only the tip of the proverbial iceberg. A poignant question arose in my spirit.
Will I only look at the blessing or can I see the real star in all of this is God Himself? He is sovereign and majestic in all His ways. In His wisdom, He orchestrates all aspects of my life to work out for my good. HE put the brakes on for a time, and HE took them off when the time was right. GOD is my real reward!
What valuable lesson has God taught you lately? Tell me about it in the comment section below.